Wednesday, July 02, 2008

a rough time tonight

i'm having a rough time tonight.

a gal who was supposed to come by to interview me (and see our house so i could babysit for them here) called and cancelled at the last minute...this is the third person to flake out on me for this type of job.

i've been looking for work for a while, and just not finding anything. it's not that i don't apply...i just get rejection letters, rejection e-mails or better yet, no contact at all.

i need to work, but finding something that goes with brian's wonky schedule is very hard, and no one (not even target, which is famous for being good for mommy schedules) is hiring. at least not me anyway.

plus monday is Jacob's birthday. and his loss date.

and.that.just.makes.me.sad.

5 comments:

Tammy said...

(((((((((((((((((Jules)))))))))) I've been marking these days with you, wondering how you are doing. You are in my prayers and I mean that. Much love from here...

Brandon & Shiela Lee said...

(((Hugs))) Remembering your sweet boy with you - and thinking of you and Brian!

YA said...

((((HUGS)))) remembering with you.

Anonymous said...

I have been reading your blog since my big sis (Tammy) made the suggestion. We lost our baby, Kaylie, on the 13th. We now have our 4th little girl, Joy. And even though I enjoy the 3 girls I have here on earth, I sure miss the one that lives in heaven. So next Sunday will be my day to think and dream about the little girl that I never got to know-and no one will tell me to dry it up! I will be thinking of you on Monday as you will commemorate his 2nd birthday. Thank you for all of the support you have unknowingly given me the past 2 years. Your pregnancy with Nora actually helped me to realize that if you could do it again-so could I. But, I will always feel as though my family is not complete-we are missing a member.

2curlygirlz said...

That sounds oh so familiar, exactly what I am going through.I literally had to stop looking because I was feeling like crap all the time. If I wasn't in the situation that I'm in I wouldn't be able to do it. God gave me Joan for a reason & I thank HIM for it. I've been able to have my surgeries, Schane's surgery, & soon go on vacation, without taking time off.

I know He has a job for the both of us out there. We just need to keep believing that & be strong.

Our prayers are with you as you struggle with Jacob's b-day tomorrow. Know that God had a plan & He is wrapping his loving arms around you & lifting you all up.

WE LOVE YOU!!!!!!

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